Who am I kidding seriously. A week to get over him? Ha.
Okay so, I had a good cry just now till fell asleep :c
And I just got out from the showers not long ago! (:
I was showering halfway and thought, ‘ if I can smile and laugh over so many things today, why should I be upset over just a thing like this? Is this worth it? ‘
I personally feel better after showering with having thoughts on my mind. Clear clean thoughts okay. Lol.
So yeah. Thank you so many people who cheered me up with their kind words. I really appreciate them and sincerely thank you guys so much, You people had made me feel better for myself.
I’m really glad that many of you cared, You guys have no idea how much this means to me :’)
Try being me for a day,walk a mile in my shoes and You’ll understand. Try being that girl that wants her boyfriend to have the best he can ever have. Try being that girl caring too much for her boyfriend. Try being that girl who was took advantage for everything she did. Try being that girl who wants to make her boyfriend happy and willingly, and I really mean WILLINGLY to do anything just to satisfy him. Try being that girl who’s trying to lose weight because She wants to be a ‘perfect pair’ with you. Try being that girl who loves her boyfriend even though everyone around her says that He’s not worth being with her. Try being that girl who tries everything just to make him happy. Try being that girl who misses her boyfriend every single second that she’s awake and can’t do anything about it. Try being that girl who sometimes get upset over stuff and her boyfriend do without knowing he has hurt her. Try being that girl who tolerates everything her boyfriend does. Are you tired now? Because it isn’t done yet.
Try being that girl who gives in mostly to everything her boyfriend says. Try being that girl who’s crying behind her boyfriend back and tries to put on a smile infront of everyone. Try being that girl who get hurt multiple times physically & mentally by her boyfriend AND still goes back to him because He said he realized what he did what wrong. Try being that girl that have her boyfriend adding girls on facebook and she can’t do anything about it. Try being that girl that sometimes see her boyfriend texting girls and pretend to know nothing about it. Try being that girl who saw photos of her boyfriend and the girl she really dislikes and can’t confront him about it. Try being that girl who know her boyfriend doesn’t like her at all anymore and tries to win him back. Try being that girl who lost something really important to her to him. Try being that girl who tried everything to have her boyfriend with her. Try being that girl who’s still holding on when she knows her boyfriend had let go. Try being that girl who gets jealous over small stuff easily and can’t do anything about it and just cry to sleep almost everytime. Try being that girl who just wants a hug or a kiss everytime from her boyfriend when she’s upset. Try being that girl who wishes to be a little girl at times and be naïve at evrrything. Try being that girl that wish to be perfect for her boyfriend. Try being that girl who quarrel with her family and friends just to be with her boyfriend. Try being that girl who lost everything and holds on pretending to know that her boyfriend still likes her. Try being that girl who gave almost everything she had just to be with her boyfriend. Try being that girl who just wants to smile happily when She’s with her boyfriend. Try being that girl who tried every single thing she could think of. Try being that girl who rather feel physical pain rather than emotionally pain. And you know what? That girl is tired of everything, She’s giving up (‘;
Are you feeling tired trying to be her? Or maybe you didn’t bothered because you don’t care. She’s not blaming you for anything that happened, but rather She wants to thank you for it, for making her strong with broken hearted pieces. For leaving her with a broken heart and smile &She wants to let you know that what she typed out is barely half the things she has gone thru.
If you actually read the whole thing, I’m glad. And I’m gonna move on. Find someone better than me okay? Someone out there will treat you so much better than me. & Yes I’m giving up just like that. No turning back. I just have to wait for maybe two more years to leave everything behind and start afresh at that beautiful place. If I can live so long before you came into my life, why can’t I live long too even after you leave? She’s going to be stronger with that broken heart.
Thanks for reading guise! & I’m feeling alot better too don’t worry 😉 and wooo 200+ views. Yay!