It finally dawned to me tonight .
The heartbreak stabbed me so hard to the point I had to accept how much I meant to someone whom I thought , loved me but only till now that I realized all along I was just being used and got fooled around all over again . I let him used me twice . How silly , but looking at how happy he is without me while I’m barely on the surface , made me realized that how weak and pathetic I was infront of him and that I can do so much better than this.
It’s going to be so much harder than the first , but maybe someday……………I’ll be back on my feet again .
Wish me luck .