It’s been awhile. I’ve been wanting to write for some time now but nothing feels right for me. There are nights where I lie awake and think about my future, about the decisions I had made prior to who I am right now. Did I made the right decision to quit studying in Higher Nitec… Continue reading
Today was hard. Woke up feeling super stressed out and all I wanted to do was cry. I found myself eating lesser than usual, having a lot more nightmares and blackouts occurring more often than I would want it to be. I am so unhappy. But I have no one I’m comfortable confiding in to… Continue reading
Oh god I hate crying. Crying means I no longer have the control on the demons that are swimming around in my head. Panic attacks while crying is the worst because I can barely take a breath to even try to calm myself down. You had your fair share in the past, but why is… Continue reading
“Do you have any idea how selfish you are if you are to think like that? What about your parents? Your family? Your friends? Have you ever thought about them IF you were to ____________* or become _____________**?” 1)Overdose on pills/ Suicidal 2)Jump down/ Suicidal 3)Cutting/ Suicidal 4)Die/ Suicidal Or “Why are you being like… Continue reading PSA!!!! Parents!!! Children!!! [Mental awareness]
Sometimes I wonder if you still think about me. As odd as this may sounds, I miss hanging out with you a lot. There would be times when I’m out and I see things that made me think about you and how you would react to my lame ass jokes and I would giggle or… Continue reading –
I can’t sleep again. Been thinking a lot lately. I feel like I’m at this stage in life where I know what I want yet I don’t know what I want. (Am I making sense?) I’m utterly confused and sometimes I just find myself wanting to be alone. I want to find my drive. Hopefully… Continue reading Thoughts.
It’s been long. 2016 has arrived and just the start of the year it has been painfully awful. My baby boy has passed away on 11/1. Every night has been dreadful, it feels like every inch of me has been sucked away into darkness and everything feels ……. Nothing. No words could describe how badly… Continue reading