I’ve forgotten about this site. I read my previous posts and this is just gonna be another one of those post again. Sadly. I can never truly understand why do I always get this kind of shit happen to me. (I’ve forgotten what a heartbreak feels like) Maybe you did or you didn’t notice, but… Continue reading Soul shattering.
Today was hard. Woke up feeling super stressed out and all I wanted to do was cry. I found myself eating lesser than usual, having a lot more nightmares and blackouts occurring more often than I would want it to be. I am so unhappy. But I have no one I’m comfortable confiding in to… Continue reading
Oh god I hate crying. Crying means I no longer have the control on the demons that are swimming around in my head. Panic attacks while crying is the worst because I can barely take a breath to even try to calm myself down. You had your fair share in the past, but why is… Continue reading
Sometimes I wonder if you still think about me. As odd as this may sounds, I miss hanging out with you a lot. There would be times when I’m out and I see things that made me think about you and how you would react to my lame ass jokes and I would giggle or… Continue reading –
I can’t sleep again. Been thinking a lot lately. I feel like I’m at this stage in life where I know what I want yet I don’t know what I want. (Am I making sense?) I’m utterly confused and sometimes I just find myself wanting to be alone. I want to find my drive. Hopefully… Continue reading Thoughts.
It’s been long. 2016 has arrived and just the start of the year it has been painfully awful. My baby boy has passed away on 11/1. Every night has been dreadful, it feels like every inch of me has been sucked away into darkness and everything feels ……. Nothing. No words could describe how badly… Continue reading
I can’t sleep. This loss is far more painful than I thought it would. I thought I could at least overcome it but I know deep down I can’t.I just can’t do that. Giving someone your all even though you have not much to offer is tough, but it’s even tougher when they don’t think… Continue reading